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Truthfully I hate hearing people call me by name because it makes me immediately feel stressed like Iâm in trouble. And because the moment someone says my name like itâs a nasty dirty wordâŚ.I hear that tone every time they say my name from there on out whether they use it or not it just echoes through my brain.
#it doesnât matter#I donât matter#nothing fucking matters#I already just want to be alone#not really#but also yeah#I made a mistake and you act like itâs just me#being horrible all the time#like sorry I forgot that you actually cleaned for the the first time in weeks and weeks#and I assumed that the laundry thatâs been sitting in the same spot for like two months was still dirty#like it was sitting in the exact same spot that itâs been in#of course I thought it was dirty#I had work yesterday and you didnât tell me you washed it while I was at work#like I know you took a nap like you usually do while Iâm gone and you got some other stuff done#idk Iâm just rambling now#I justâŚyou were the only person that hearing my name come out of your mouth didnât cause me to have this tiny spike of anxiety#like youâd only ever said my name lovingly#like itâs a beautiful thing#and justâŚthe derision in your voice made my whole body feel cold.#tired of this existence
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Oh project 2025 isnât going to happen youâre being paranoid-
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What the absolute fuck is this then? This country is so fucked.
#us politics#donald trump#fuck trump#slowly going insane#why the fuck did half of the country vote for this orange piece of shit#Iâm so tired man#can people not exist in peace anymore here?
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yeah we might be brothers in christ but so were cain and abel so shut the fuck up before i decide to find a rock about it
#postscript;#if you try to tell me cain and abel were not brothers in christ shut up pls#i've studied theology for nearly a decade. i know more than you.#christ's harrowing of hell exists to retroactively turn all of humanity even before his existence into ''brothers'' in christ#because it is not a literal term it is an evangelist term. bc christianity in all denominations is evangelistic in nature#not being a christian is 1. a moral incorrect choice according to them and#2. not actually possible. everyone is judged as a christian everyone is fundamentally supposed to be christian#calling someone a brother in christ is just calling them christian.#so ergo according to doctrine cain and abel are in fact brothers in christ#but#and this is far more important than any of that#i was not trying to be perfectly accurate to the theological timeline of the tanakh vs torah vs old testament vs new testament vs apocrypha#i was trying to make a silly one line joke on the internet#and all you do when you try to go Well Actually They Werent is make yourself look stupid and pedantic.#so for the love of god stop it with needing to be right online im so bored and tired
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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man. this whole thing pisses me off because like. even when people talk about staff having a history of hating trans women, that this isnt the first time, without fail black trans women are forgotten to be included again and again. im not surprised this caused such an uproar when the popular white woman gets deleted. nobody should be, its been that way like forever. some cunt in my inbox got annoyed i called rita a sex worker (lol? okay)
but i mentioned that in my post because so many black trans women have gotten removed from this site for their sex work alone, regardless of if it "broke community guidelines" or not, especially when tumblr live and the ads on this website are so fucking horny. idek what to say rn because like. this wont get as many notes as the posts talking about her will. the exploding car thing is gonna get more attention than the trans women on this site you dont actually care about listening to. ive been talking about how unfair it is to be a black tgirl on this site for years and nobody cares.
i love rita, we talked abit the other day and she's doing fine, dont get it twisted and think i hate her or some bs, she's a big fucking reason im not fucking homeless.
but part of why her deletion got to #1 trending on tumblr for multiple days in a row is that she's white
#reblog this you fuckers. im tired of you people saying you care about us. about my sisters and then ignore us like we never existed#gonna have to put abuncha these tags here again too otherwise literally nobody will see. i got abuncha new followers for that post#yall better Do Something other than performative bullshit for once#whatever. whatever.#predstrogen#photomatt#transgender#trans rights#black trans lives matter#black trans women#carhammerexplosionmatt
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Danny commits to the Bit a bit too hard...
So! For the first few weeks after his accident, whenever Danny would try to help the people of Amity Park, he would be treated as a Villain.
No matter if he had just defeated the Big Bad of the Week or saved a Cat from a tree, everybody in town only saw him as a Monster or Villain to he feared and hunted down. Danny was really getting sick of trying to get them on his side, until Sam made a suggestion.
"Why not just...play into it?" She said, barely looking up from painting her nails.
It was just an offhand suggestion, but it stuck with Danny. Why shouldn't he lean into it? The people of Amity Park already saw Ghosts as Evil, and they already assumed he was in cahoots with the Ghosts attacking the town. Why shouldn't he just...play into it?
So he does just that.
From that day on, whenever Phantom was spotted he would dramatically monologue about his Evil Plans, or claim that another Rogues attack on the City was his own act of terror.
Box Ghost destroys the towns Warehouses? It was on his orders.
Ember mind controls masses of Teenagers? All part of his Plans somehow.
Every Adult in Town is kidnapped by Young Blood? Danny gave them over to a friend as a Gift.
He crafts an identity for himself as the most Vile and Horrible Ghost that has ever attacked the City, using his own infamy to cement his legend even more firmly. The town only sees a Monsterous Villain, who has eveded capture near effortlessly for months on end, who constantly attacks their City and gets away with it.
Of course he still needs an excuse for how his plans keep getting stopped, and he gets it when his girlfriend Valerie becomes the Red Huntress. Before that, he just claimed infighting or the Fentons getting lucky, but Valerie becoming the Town's Hero meant he had a plausible excuse for how he kept getting "Foiled".
Val was suspicious, because she was not as involved as Phantom painted her to be, but in the end she had no proof of him faking his defeats. And she couldn't come up with any explanations for why he would do that in the first place. I mean, who would fake being a Supervillain? It had to he something else.
This did come back to bite him a while later, when the Justice League decided that enough was enough, and dispatched Justice League Dark to recruit Red Huntress and help Deal with him.
Coincidentally, that was the same day Pariah Dark attacked the Mortal Realm and sucked Amity Park into the Ghost Zone.
And honestly? Danny had spent over a Year proclaiming himself as a Villain who commanded Ghosts to attack the Human Realm, and he had heard about the Right of Conquest being Absolute in the Ghost Zone, so why not make it official? Why not overthrow the Ghost King, become the Ghost King, and cement his identity as a Villain while also forbidding Ghosts from entering the Human Realm without his permission?
He may have gotten a bit carried away and forgotten that the Villain thing was a disguise...but hey! He was still preventing Ghost Attacks! ...mostly. That's got to count for something right?
He may have let the Bit run a bit too far...
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#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Danny is a Villain#Or he pretends to be a Villain#It started out as a Persona so he didn't have to keep justifying his existence to civilians and then spiraled out of control#He got a little too committed to the Bit#Danny claims that all Ghost Attacks are on his orders as a convenient excuse for being at the scene of every attack#He befriends a few of his Rogues and actually does command them sometimes to keep up the charade#They can indulge in their Obsessions from time to time and the Kid gets to keep up his weird Villain Act that he likes to do#It's a win-win#I wonder if Danny would try to recruit Vlad?#Or would Vlad fully buy into the Villain Persona and try to join Danny's team only for Danny to REPEATEDLY reject him?#âWhy won't my incredible Villain Godson accept me?! And I not enough of a Villain for him?!â He cries to himself sometimes#Danny is the Ghost King#He just decided to overthrow Pariah when he attacked to cement his Villain Persona#And completely forgot that it was supposed to be a Persona for a minute there#JLD and Red Huntress are working overtime to defeat him#He is now the Next Big Threatâ˘ď¸ and doesn't even realize it#Sam and Tucker are just laughing theirs asses off at the mess he got himself into#Jazz is tired#And Val is wondering why her boyfriend is so awkward whenever she mentions Phantom
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The fact that the Bad Kids chose to bring Gilear with them on spring break and then have to spend every fight trying to keep him alive is so funny. Absolutely negative value ally. Truly nothing but a liability. I love him so much.
#and so do they! and they are correct!!#i'm watching the pirate fight in hell in ep 15 now and they are trying SO hard to keep gilear alive#i will never get tired of the gag that is gilear's whole existence#fantasy high#dimension 20#gilear faeth#kk talks about stuff#kk watches d20
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candlelight
this certain dynamic abt millywood that goes beyond wolfwood simply yearning for millyâhow he deems her as a mother, a lover, an enemy, a friend, a curse, a salvationâhow milly becomes a symbol he can't put into a word, and it scares him and he wants to bury himself in it and beg for forgiveness all the same...
wolfwood knowing he has nothing to be forgiven of (that he's a sinful, sinful man) but THE YEARNING FOR ONE. the thought of how getting close to her feels like it'll melt away his 'impurities' (which is him entirely, he'll be GONE), but still clinging to her as both humanity and a heretic icon of worship......
#smth smth milly melting ww away into non-existence like a candlelight to its candle (symbolism)#smth smth ww like kneeling like a child over the comforting lap of a mother (he's so tired)#smth smth a priest who kneels to confess his sins...#lots of thoughts abt them#nicholas d wolfwood#milly thompson#trigun#trigun anime#millywood#myuminjidoodle
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i feel like iâm constantly relearning to love the world again after very painful experiences and grief but sometimes itâs as simple as stepping outside and seeing a flower with a bright yellow centre and thinking âoh, how stunning!âÂ
#đ#i'm tired but i still have a sweet existence now and in the future#still holding on to hope and curiosity
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i vote that next year instead of reading Dracula we do a Jeeves & Wooster Book Club. those two never got the rabid tumblr shipping fandom they deserved (disqualified for the sheer technicality of being published a century too soon). we must correct this injustice
#jeeves and wooster#i want to watch tumblr go rabid i want to watch ao3 overflow with jeeves/wooster fanfiction#yes obviously the fandom EXISTS but it's a cozy little neighborhood#a handful of talented artists and writers doing their best to keep their charming little village going#but i'm tired of cozy i want this fandom TRENDING#I WANT TO SEE THIS ON MY DASHBOARD PEOPLE#i swear to you if they made a shiny new tv series tumblr would absolutely obsess over these characters. good omens levels of obsession#it's just such a great dynamic! the good-natured overly-trusting bumbling idiot in constant need of rescuing!#the stoic all-knowing genius who quietly masterminds mayhem in order to protect this one moron he's devoted himself to for some reason#jeeves as a morosexual is just such a beautiful interpretation of the original text#wooster as a happy-go-lucky himbo who stumbles his way into a relationship with a protective caring and supremely competent mastermind#the angst and social complexities of a same-sex cross-class relationship in turn-of-the century london!#oh AND half the stories are about jeeves helping wooster get out of engagements/desperately avoid marriage#two men who live together constantly scheming to maintain their bachelorhood. this is quite literally the main plot point#the gay subtext is there! the gay subtext is there and very ripe for picking!!!#this thing is LOCKED AND LOADED we can pounce literally any time
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Let him speak
#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic art#shadow the hedgehog#sorry its kinda crappy but I'm tired and pen is NOT forgiving#i stg i forget pencils exist sometimes- being able to erase would be nice đ¤#sonadow#because any time I draw these two together its on my mind >:))#Sonic is the king of hypocrisy. bro wants everyone to be happy but will willing let himself melt into the floor before a âfeelings talkâ
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very close to giving up. i feel like i need to go back to the damn ward. i hate that this is my life, and that none of it gets to be easy.
i am tired.
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idk as the days go by the urge to hang myself is getting stronger
#mentally tired#actually sad#depressing life#depressing shit#i'm sad#kinda depressing#actually bipolar#actually bpd#actually borderline#bipolar thoughts#mentally drained#actually mentally ill#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#mentally exhausted#mental illness#mental health#iâm going insane#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bipolar things#bipolar mania#bipolardepression#bipolar disorder#i hate my existence#i hate it here#i hate this
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Eternal Bonds: Tim and Dannyâs Infinite Realms Marriage
In the Infinite Realms, marriage is an unparalleled commitment. Unlike the mortal world, where love can be fleeting and easily undone, marriage in the Realms is something far more sacred. Itâs not just about vows or ceremoniesâitâs about merging souls, creating a bond that not even the vast stretches of time can sever. The very idea of marriage in the Realms is rare, almost mythical, because it requires two beings to love each other so profoundly that theyâre willing to bind their very existence to one another.
For the ghosts and entities that reside in this realm, eternity isnât just a poetic ideaâitâs a reality. Time is meaningless when youâre no longer alive, when your very essence is bound to the afterlife. And because of this, relationships are viewed through a different lens. Thereâs no such thing as divorce, no âtime apart.â Once a couple is bound, their souls are intertwined forever. To dedicate your entire beingâpast, present, and futureâto another means accepting that their joys, sorrows, triumphs, and failures will be yours too. Itâs a partnership where breaking the bond is simply impossible.
Itâs why marriage is such a rare occurrence in the Realms. The ghosts, who have already lived one life and often seen the frailty of mortal promises, donât enter into this kind of bond lightly. Itâs only for the strongest of loves, for the most steadfast of commitments. Because once you marry in the Infinite Realms, that bond holds through eternity itself.
And yet, despite the gravity of it all, Tim and Danny find themselves willing to make that very commitment. Tim, a mortal tied to a world where things end, where nothing lasts forever, steps into the unknown. His love for Danny is so deep, so unshakable, that he agrees to a traditional Infinite Realms marriage. He knows full well the weight of itâheâs not just vowing to love Danny in this life, but in every life after. In swearing to this bond, Tim is offering his entire being to Danny, for now and all of eternity.
For Danny, this choice means even more. As a halfa, he exists between two worlds, knowing both the mortality of the living and the permanence of the ghostly afterlife. His love for Tim is powerful enough that heâs willing to make this eternal commitment, knowing that thereâs no one else in any worldâmortal, ghostly, or beyondâhe would rather be tied to. For Danny, the bond is as natural as breathing. Itâs a connection that deepens their relationship in a way that transcends the limitations of their two worlds.
Their marriage isnât just a declaration of loveâitâs a merging of souls, a binding that makes them two parts of the same whole. It overwhelms them with the sense of safety and belonging that theyâve both craved in their lives. In each other, they find the kind of love that doesnât just endure lifeâs difficulties but thrives beyond them. Their bond ties them together forever in a way that no one else could understand, but to Tim and Danny, itâs everything.
They are each otherâs home. And in the Infinite Realms, there is no greater honor, no stronger connection, than to be bound by love for all of eternity.
#brain dead#dead tired#tim drake#danny phantom#danny fenton#dc x dp#i totally think that marriage should be a sacred thing in the afterlife because you are promising to love someone for all eternity#eternity in a very literal sense btw#tim and danny should also just be undeniable soulmates in like every world ever#you can also totally make this angsty depending on how you think tim will end up in the realms#i had a few ideas#an interesting route could be that the traditional Infinite Realms marriage alters Tim fundamentally#turning him into a halfa like Danny#this transformation would ensure that they are not only emotionally and spiritually bonded#but also physically tied to the same plane of existence#another being tim might age much slower almost as if heâs been granted an extended lifespan#so that they can share a near-eternity together#he would still be alive but his mortality would be stretched out far beyond a normal human lifespan#i think this one is more devastating tho:#danny has to watch tim grow old while he remains ageless or only ages very slowly#but because the wedding binds their souls in the afterlife tim would not truly leave danny forever upon death#instead the moment tim's mortal life ends his soul could be drawn into the infinite realms to live with danny for eternity#agh theres just so much potential for this idea!! so many things i can add and have thought abt that would be so interesting to see!#i'm so in love with this concept
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not to toot my own horn too loud or anything but i've showered 5/6 days so far this week and started running again and now i can kill god
#ramble#neurotypicals don't interact i'm tired of explaining why showering is the bane of my fucking existence#my thought process is like#go for run -> get all sweaty and gross -> NEED to shower -> ahah get clean motherfucker#i don't think i can get away with not doing it rn it's too damn hot#also they should invent a version of the feeling you get after a run that doesn't involve actually running. bc starting up again HURTS#but i. refuse to go back to the gym it's just too Much there#jogging is great bc there's the sun and grass and DOGS and gym bros don't bother you
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EDAAAAA!!! GIVE ME AN AU WHERE DANNY IS AROACE/ACE AND MY LIFE IS YOURSSS!!!!
- from your beloved moot. A.E. đť
(Aroace Danny is a great idea, but I just canât think of any ideas rn, so ace!Danny it is)
Danny fidgeted with his fingers as he cuddled against Tim. Tim didnât notice at first, entirely focused on his computer but when Danny was silent for too long and seemed to be finding the courage to say something, Tim turned to him.
âWhatâs up?â He asked.
Danny winced from the question. Then he asked, âDo you⌠ever want more?â
Tim blinked. He was very confused on what Danny was asking, but he paused before he could say something stupid. â⌠want what?â He eventually asked.
â⌠more. With our relationship?â
Timâs eyes widened. âMe??â
Danny nodded and looked at his feet. âWeâve been dating for almost a year now. Do you⌠want to go further? I thought you wouldâve asked by nowâŚ.â
It wasnât in Dannyâs nature to be so roundabout. Usually, he was very blunt and hated beating around the bush. In fact, this was very similar to the conversation they had when Danny first revealed the fact that he was trans.
Tim stared at him, trying to decipher his true meaning. His brain was quickly filtering through the previous week, trying to find anything that couldâve hinted at the conversation right now.
âUhm. Are you talking about sex?â
Danny turned pale and looked at his hands. Then he nodded slowly.
Tim barely withheld his sigh of relief. He was almost wondering if Danny was about to reveal that he had an evil twin or something.
Gentling his voice, Tim took his hand, squeezed it, and said, âItâs okay. I know that weâve been dating for a while, but thereâs no rush. I donât have any desire to push you into doing anything you donât want to do.â
Danny suddenly blurted out, âIâm asexual!â
Tim blinked again. âSure. I donât mind.â
The look in Dannyâs eyes, hopeful and unsure, almost broke Timâs heart. âY-You sure? Because I donât think I want to⌠have sex. Not that itâs your fault! Itâs just because Iââ
âLike I said,â Tim said with an amused smile, âI donât mind. A relationship doesnât need sex to succeed. Itâs okay, I promise.â
Danny stared at him, searching his face for anything before he broke into a smile and relaxed. âOkay. Thank you.â
âNothing to thank me for,â Tim dismissed, squeezing his hand again. âI thought you were going to tell me that you have an evil twin or something.â
Something strange flitted over Dannyâs expression.
Tim stared at him in horror.
âDanny?! Tell me you donât have an evil twin!!â
#dc x dp#dp x dc#dpxdc#dcxdp#danny phantom x dc#dp x dc crossover#ask#danny fenton#anonymous existences#tim drake#ty for the ask!#tim x danny#brain dead ship#dead tired ship
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